воскресенье, 3 декабря 2017 г.

Sweet Emotional Weekends

Last Friday my mom came to visit me in Tallinn. It’s now our tradition- she comes in the beginning of December to me. So this time it was straight 1st of December. Luckily, I had no French this time and we could reunite with my mommy right in the morning. I met her at 10.30 am and we immediately started talking, hugging and many other things too. We missed  each other so much.

Again, by tradition we baked ginger cookies listening to Christmas songs while outside it was heavily snowing but because it was wet snow, it was not very nice outside. Later we went to the city to walk, take some photos and explore new places we haven’t visited. When it got a bit darker, found a cozy café in the Old Town where we’ve not been and went there to warm up and drink lattes. It was so nice, sipping delicious coffee, talking to a favorite person and watching how it’s slowly but surely getting darker, and snowing outside.

We came home around 4pm. Of course, we lighted candles, lights and turned on one of the Christmas movies from our list. It was followed by hot tea with ginger cookies, persimmons and tangerines.  Later on a thriller with homemade popcorn and tea with honey and lemon. Before going to bed, we talked, discussed some things and just relaxed.

I’ll be honest and say that I got a bit emotional when mom went to sleep  and I stayed in my room. Suddenly, I got scared, felt lonely, even though mom was right behind the door in another room. But I was just worried about the school-how much I have to do, about my exams and grades, also about being lonely, etc...So I went to my mom and cried to her for a while lying on her shoulder and hugging her. After that, I calmed for a bit but couldn’t sleep right away. Some time needed to fully relax and calm my mind, but luckily after awhile I managed to do this and felt asleep.

On Saturday morning we decided to go early to a café to have a little breakfast in a café. It was good to wake up early while it was dark, almost no one on the streets, only lights and silence. Even though I would sleep much more instead of waking up so early, but I didn’t want to miss the opportunity to spend more time with mom. Then, at 13pm she left home. : ((
3 weeks, and I’ll be home. I just need to be patient. 

суббота, 18 ноября 2017 г.

Rested and Calm

I woke up today fresh and rested. Got ready, snacked on some fruits: a persimmon and an apple, and headed to yoga. What a good practice it was. We always start with breathing, slow warm up and Surya Namaskar and then balances and strength asanas, after what I was really sweaty. Our practices often vary, sometimes you sweat a lot, sometimes not, and today I really was...but it was really really good. After Shavasana I was very relaxed and rested.

After a two hour practice I had a latte while reading a book and then bought some things-presents. At home I lighted candles and had some yummies. Again, just relaxed, watched movies, had tea and so on.
Really try not to bother myself with school or anything connected with that, at least one for day. Can’t wait to finally finish this semester and reconnect with my family and enjoy the winter holidays. :))

пятница, 17 ноября 2017 г.

Late Fall Beauty

Minus another difficult week. I love this feeling when you finally realize that you’ve survived the week that you didn’t want so bad to come and finally, it’s over.
No doubts, there will be not one week like this and they will be perhaps even harder…Because the fall semester is slowly but surely going to its end, the things at school are getting really intense.

I had an early morning French class today, then, as usually, went to buy some groceries for the next week and studied. I have some presentations next week as well but not really that nervous about it. I've just watched a movie with some popcorn and lemon tea and now going to take a nice shower and then relax for the rest of the night.
Tomorrow I am planning to get a good sleep, of course. Then I am going to Hatha yoga(can’t live without that), maybe after grab somewhere a cuppa of latte and read a good book in a cozy café. So I always like to make my Saturdays as more relaxed as possible without thinking of school, doing any homeworks or stressing about something, just doing what I want and feel like. 
By the way, it’s already the mid of November, and I still haven’t uploaded the rest of my fall photos that I took this autumn when it was really beautiful outside. So I decided, know it’s time while it’s still autumn.

среда, 8 ноября 2017 г.

Busy School Days

I am so tired…The school is getting busier and busier every day: lots of homeworks, group works and presentations..The homeworks are fine but the other stuff I just hate. On top of that, I again can’t properly sleep, always overwhelmed with lots of thoughts, usually about school, and because of that I struggle to peacefully fall asleep, even though I feel that I am super tired.

Next week will be super ‘fun’. Basically, all days, except of Friday, I am gonna be at school from early mornings till evenings. That’s basically one of the things that doesn’t let me sleep because I keep thinking of this and being angry at our school and study department who so ‘nicely’ organizes our timetable and puts the subjects in every free for us time… I just have so much hate feelings inside of me towards people(not all), school, etc.. It’s not normal, I know, but I just can’t help myself.
I am trying to think of something positive, find any benefits from next week but there are like none of them. Just sit at school all day, try not to fall asleep or don’t let your brain burn out.

I think I’ll just go to bed now and watch a bit of a new serial that I started last Saturday and already watched quite many episodes of it, because it’s actually good. Anyway, it’s called “Outlander” and I am glad I’ve found it because it kinda calms me down and I enjoy watching this.
Good night.

 missing him :(

вторник, 31 октября 2017 г.

Birthday Weekends

 Gloomy and rainy morning. Black warm coffee and calm music.

I had such amazing weekends at home starting from Wednesday evening and till Saturday evening.
It was my birthday on Wednesday. Already 22 but doesn’t feel like this at all. 

We had a little celebration with my mom and grandparents(dad was working), ate delicious almond cake with champagne. I finally could normally talk to my family, talk a lot with my mom and enjoy this.

When we came home, I hugged my cat who is already so big, even though he is only 6 months now.

 On Thursday I had a good 1.30 hour yoga practice while it was snowing outside. Then I had coffee with mom and our lovely cozy morning together as usually. We also had sushi later and watched a new version of the movie “It”. Later in the evening I went to my friend whom I haven’t seen for some time, so we had (especially she) quite a lot to tell each other. It was also nice and cozy watching the snow outside and dark streets. I am not a big fun of snow and winter but it was okay even in October because I knew this snow is not for too long here (and I was right :)) ). 

On Thursday we walked with mom, she took some photos of me (finally fall photos). Then I cooked delicious hummus and we watched a Halloween movie.

When it got darker we also lightened our pumpkin candles that we bought specially for Halloween and watched another good movie.

Basically, I had quite relax little holiday at home, doing almost nothing but just movies on a big screen, talks and  good food. I was a bit sad on Saturday because it was my last day  but I tried to be positive anyway. Had tea with my grandma, talked about her childhood which was really nice then, again, I was with my mom in the evening.

Now I am in Tallinn again. These two months went by quite quickly and they weren’t actually so difficult with studies. But I am not really waiting for November and December to come only because of three new subjects and long days at school that I will have now. I know it will be difficult, but as mom told me:"It’s just two (even a bit less) months and then you come back home again". So I just have to be patient during this time and try to be less stressful. I hope I can do this.