Being in the Wrong Place

Last Friday I and my mom visited Botanical Garden. It was so good to walk there through lots of different plants and trees from all over the world. Breathing this fresh air and looking at this beauty, I had almost forgotten all the things that worry me and all my doubts and questions in my life.

This is not the first time when I am not sure about whether I am on the right path or not. Right now I am a student and this is the period when I really have to decide whom I want to be and what I want to do for the rest of my life. I study business and languages already 1,5 year and quite often sitting somewhere at a management or marketing, I am like “What the hell am I doing here?” I don’t say it’s not interesting or useless, I just say that it’s not for everyone. The same as if you study law or medicine and then you understand that you don’t like it, you are not interested in it. So this happened to me. I do enjoy learning German and want to start French but I am not looking forward to studying this business related subjects and doing internship in marketing. It’s just not my thing. So I am now not in a good situation, I think.

I started talking about a beautiful place but went straight to a not very pleasant thing just because even if there are any problems in your life that you have to deal with, sometimes it’s good to get out or do something to distract yourself and enjoy good things. Eventually I will go through all these doubts and hesitations in my life and will understand what to do next.

I haven’t had time yet to see and edit photos from the Botanical Garden but I will upload them here later.

Waiting for Warmth

A week ago it was so sunny and warm that I could actually walk with my coat unzipped and even had a chance to put on my new spring trench coat last Monday.  Nevertheless, yesterday we had a snow and 0 degrees outside.  This is what we have to live with here in Estonia..

Anyway, on Saturday after my usual morning ritual(yoga,breakfast),plus cleaning and a lack of sleep(us usually), I finally visited one of the famous museums in Estonia. I cannot say for sure If liked or not. I mean, there were definitely things that caught my eye and seemed interesting to me, but most of them I didn’t understand or just didn’t like. I am not an art person, that’s for sure. So most things that I don’t find attractive and don’t see anything in them to stop and discuss, others will talk about them for 20 min or even longer. Despite this, I had a really good luck to visit many interesting places, not only museums that I liked but also theatres, Botanical Gardens and so on. Even though, most of them were in my hometown, I wish one day I’ll have more opportunities to see these things abroad.

Short story long, today I am back to school again since it’s Monday. Here are some photos taken in the beginning of April.

Here again

After about three weeks of thinking should I actually blog again, should I make a new blog, etc.. I was actually thinking of deleting this blog and starting a new one but then decided to leave everything as it is. Especially because of studying and other busy things  I was up to, I think, I would never then  wrote my new post If I had to also find a new platform and design a new blog and so on. One change I've still made-renamed my blog. "A Mess in my Head",I think,is a suitable name for this blog, as I really have a mess inside my head sometimes when I can't sort out my thoughts and when sometimes I can't sleep.