Today I messeged my mom and told her how much I miss her and want her to be with me. I was crying all past week and today, when she answered me, I also cried. It's been almost a week and a half since I left my home. I don't care that I am an "adult" now(even though I don't behave like that quite often, however I have to) and despite my age..I am also not ashamed of my tears and words that I miss my mom. For some people it's easy to leave their parents, homes, and for some it's not. Even though it's not my first year that I've moved to another city and it's not even another country, but I still feel sad. Maybe that's also because I am not completely satisfied with what I am doing, with where I am etc...
I also wanted to say how excited I am for the fall and mostly for October. Not only because it's my birthday but also because of all the beauty, atmosphere and coziness. I don't know when it's started but earlier I didn't feel so excited for this season. I mean, I liked it but not always, escpecially because of the rains and cold weather but I still enjoyed the atmosphere. Now I can also sometimes complain about cold weather(I hate cold), sometimes about the rain and strong winds(usually when you have to go somewhere), but still my attitude has changed. Now I feel more content with this season. Can't wait to start baking apples,apple pies,cookies,cocoa etc..Also looking forward to making the room cozier with the candles and lights. Love this crisp fall air in the mornings and evenings.
Those feelings and things really save me from negative thoughts and being sad.
Wish you a happy September!
