I think, it’s a common
thing and most people felt that way- when you do something intentionally, you
really want this and you think it’s right, but then it turned out not in a way
that you hoped it to be. You start to realize that you did something wrong, it’s
your fault and maybe you wish you hadn’t done this. But what’s done is done.
Ok, not gonna
talk in riddles anymore. Basically, this situation happened to me last week. I
have to move out from the apartment where I am living now. I really liked my
room, the apartment on the whole, but I was (especially lately) not very glad
with the conditions and some events that were happening here. I may sound a bit
naughty and maybe wrong, because this is not my apartment and I rent only one
single room, but when I was moving in there, I was told that, for example, I
will live with a girl who sometimes will be coming here. There were also some
other aspects that were agreed between us, but also many of those things that
weren’t actually said, and I didn’t expect it to be so..So I decided to do something(discussed it with my mom, and we messaged an apartment owner). Eventually, she didn't like this, she was very outraged and so on. I, on the other hand , thought and still thinking that, in a way, I am right. Yes, there were some doubts but I don't really regret this.
I think, I am
not the only one, who after a long day at school, or even on the weekends,
wants to just come home and have a rest, maybe take a nap or something else.
However, when I want to do this or when I need it so bad, unexpectedly we (not
me, of course, but the others here in the apartment) have guests, aka family
members with their 2 kids .I just couldn't stand it anymore. But, of course, nothing has not changed yet. I am still here, and probably the worst things will only happen because of this.
So this is really messed up right now. Don’t even know what to do. Have lots of things at school
right now and the timetable will be really shitty these coming weeks (I’ve
mentioned it before), so the last thing I want now is to deal with the owners
of this apartment (I mean, really deal and sort things out) and also thinking
of finding another room, going to check it out and so on..Maybe I will be able
to stay here, at least, till the beginning of June, when semester will be over.
I just hope that I won’t be told bad things from the owners when they will
come.
The beginning of
spring actually wasn’t that bad for me. A week ago, on Friday, my mom came to
visit me and stayed with me for two nights. Not everything was as we wanted it
to be and as it usually was, when she was coming to me, but we anyway had great
time together…because we were together! We were waking up really early (my mom
always does, and I did because wanted to be with her more), so this week I was
also a bit tired and had a lack of sleep. Luckily, I slept well. Anyway, we had
lots of good coffee, talked a lot, walked, watched movies and had
delicious food.
Everything was perfect till the moment when my mom left.
The photo is really dark, because of the poor lighting in the cafe.But it actually makes this place even cozier. :)
Yesterday I had a good practice (as always) in yoga studio , it was also provided by a good
and pleasant music there, so I got a bit inspired and was even happy. Wow! But
that’s exactly what I needed after not a very good week. I came home and made
myself a good cup of coffee, read my book, lighted a candle. The weather is
shitty now (everything is melting, grey and so on), basically it’s the
beginning of spring. So I really wanted to come home and warm up in my home
clothes and a blanket.
